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Aug 27
2010
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It is always interesting to hear someone say to me "You are so strong". During the many chapters of my life I have felt anything but strong. It seems that everytime that I feel weak and can't find a way out or enough to go on...somehow, someway...I do. Is it my faith in God, is it my friends and family who pull me when I can't seem to move? I believe its all of these and more. Strength comes from so many places. From those who help you when you are down....from God who will not give more than you can handle (although at the time we think that we just can't take anymore)...or from all the other experiences you have had in your life and you look back and remember where you were and that you made it through. Even when you thought you couldnt or wouldnt make it...you did. I did. All of those experiences along that broken road brought us to where we are today and to who we are. Looking back I can remember the situation but not the feeling of despair. It goes away because we made it...and for me, I want to remember the situation but not the feeling of hopelessness because I did it...and THATS the part I want to remember. I made it. I did it...I got through. I learned alot about myself during those times and after those times. I become a better decision maker....a better parent...a better friend and a better person. It puts me in a place of gratitude and allows me to be free from that feeling so that I can be good for someone else.
Strength - the one thing that we get from others when we cant seem to find it in ourselves...which in turn is our cue to give back. When someone else falls..it is our duty as a friend, lover, family member...human being....to give it back. When you cannot make it one more step...I will be there to pull you along. It is my destiny to be strong for me but it is my lifes work to be strong for you.
As a child I experienced so much trauma but I am now seeing that choosing to continue to be a victim saps one of all of our life energies. Strength, courage, love, trust and respect. Although I didnt have many good examples or role models in my pre teen and teen years I have been fortunate enough to have God provide those people to me at exactly all the right times. I am not saying that some of those people that came into my life didnt hurt me too, but I thank them as well. Not for the hurt but for the learning and the growing. Pain comes with growth. Strength comes from our spirit. Indomitable spirit that we all posses. At times, we might not think that we can dig deep enough to get it out but we can. We do. When you live a life filled with fear and pain you become accustomed to these feelings. Strength is what brings you through it and gives you the ability to begin to see the other feelings that are there also such as faith, love and healing. It is my wish for each person today to find the love inside of themselves so that you can recognize your own worth and strength. God does nto make mistakes. God is a loving and giving God if you just let Him. He never leaves you...we make the choice to leave Him. When you give your life and your journey over to God...you will find that you have strength to move mountains. You might not have to acutally move mountains but there might be someone that crosses your path or is in your life that needs you know...needs your strength. And believe me...you have it...and you have a lot more to give. Keep on giving. Keep on loving and stay strong. As you give to others you get what you need so that you can keep on giving.
God Bless the Broken Road. I am grateful for every moment and every person who crossed my path because God knows that although I am a mess...I am a beautiful mess. Fractal and amazing. Namaste, Love and Light.

